agent orange makes your corn

Monsanto...learn about them and you will never eat the same

Fail

PMA wiring

does this look right?

motorcycles are to mini-vans

like ants to a kid with a magnifying glass on a sunny day

ksl.com - Officer in critical condition after traffic accident in West Valley City

Archers of LoafAll the Nation's Airports

my buddy blair from norf cacalac (north carolina), whom some of you may know as the guy who 1)punched fred durst 2) punched a flying bat right out of the air 3) invented the "donkey flip" (snowboardings most calculated move) 4) held my hand when i broke my arm and the bone was sticking out....anyway, he got to go see Archers in N.C and was rubbing it in, so it got them running thru my mind again and now i've been listening to my one and only archers album for a few days now....

an apology (ish)

just wanted to say sorry/explain myself for when i act like a crazy person...but i am a crazy person - always have been, its just been more accentuated that last few years as i poorly sift through lifes changes...seeing my son suffer is a huge part of it, the uncertainty of his future, the let down of people being ignorant and cold hearted about his needs, even people who claim to have a life marked by Love...if you have a heart, these pictures make you feel something, take that feeling, add to it that it never turns off as a parent, what you see in the pics is only part of his troubles, other kids and their stupid parents act like hes contagious, friends and family can't hack it and bow out, etc

i'm not sure what else to write, maybe i'll add more as my brain clears

Hugh's HandBuilt: A Friend in Need - Please Read

Hugh's HandBuilt: A Friend in Need - Please Read: "Got a good customer in need.... He has a little girl who is in need of some medical help, and he is out of cash. He is parting out his bea..."

good buddies

this post is for the guys who think they know how to provide for my family better than me

did you have to comfort your wife today when she came home crying because your son wants so bad to be able to keep up with the other kids in the neighboorhood and he just cant?

no you didn't

did you have to wrestle with "should i keep him home and safe, or give him a shot at independance and let him play at the house next door?" and then did you fight back tears and feel your heart stop and drown in guilt when someone came running over to say that your son got hurt?

no you didn't

do you have to fight back the anger/frustration/anxiety/ tears when your kid wants to play with the other kids and mcdonalds playland, but they just stare at him for a minute, then run the other way?

no you don't

does guilt suffocate you on a daily basis because you can't afford all the equpiment that you know would help your son function more independantly?

no it doesn't

did you comfort me when i came to you hurting?

no you didn't, you preached at me and told me i'm not doing enough

now accepting

now accepting donations in the form of sportster












*if you ever are stuck between "do i buy xs650 for 1500 or a sporty for 4000?", sporty evertime (well 9something%)

hate these decisions

this video explains an operation they want us to consider for Noah, my 5 year old with cerebral palsy...inshort, they cut his back open, pull a vertabre out, then pull out the nerves, test nerves to see which seem to cause the most spasticity, permanently cut those nerves, put them and bone back in...making these decisions kill me...then watching him suffer through is all with the uncertainty of "is this going to be worth it?"...the last few years have really been eating me alive

i totally get this lady

her blog post http://cerebralpalsyfriends-mom2three.blogspot.com/2011/06/what-is-like-to-be-mother-to-child-with.html

its the end of the world....

hope you sing REM the rest of the day now...i'd put up the video of it, if i wasn't throwing this up real quick at work...

so the world may or may not end tomorrow, or start the beginning of the end as i just heard on tv...it may end in 15 mins from now...really nobody knows, if they say the do, they are a liar and/or clinically insane...

i haven't heard much on why "they" think the world is ending this time...israel typically plays some part in end of the world predictions, so my guess is that obamas comments on palestine and israel borders may have played a part of it...of that, i'd like to say: palestine has reportedly sided with hamas, who believes that israeli people do not have the right to exist...so why would you go and take land occupied by israel and give it to people who want them killed...this may be a little risky to say, but that seems like taking making some redneck KKK guy the property manager of a property occupied by african americans

we'll see how it all plays out :)

Retired Riders Video #3

latest video from my brother, couple weeks ago at PCMR...slowmo and the civilwars, its a beautiful thing

Jesus take 2

thanks, jared, jeremy and hot babe for the supportive comments on my last post...i re-read it today and realized it didn't come out as clear as i had hoped...it was pretty late when i wrote it, well for me (10:30) anyways, i checked my buddies blog today and he had something similar on there that sums it up in much less words....here ya go radio orthodoxy ....edited...as my brother pointed out my radio orthodoxy link isn't working....i'm not too up and up with all the tricks of blogging...i tried to just copy and past the whole thing, and no dice there either....i guess just go to http://beadearandcalltheparamedics.tumblr.com , then scroll down to the radio orthodoxy post...sorry

jesus

take a second and answer "what does it mean to be religious?, what is important to religious people?"........... i've been pretty frustrated with the whole christianity thing lately...which is a little more difficult to deal with seeing as how i am a christian...and i just might say somethings that i will regret later as i work through this and try to come out on the otherside with a better understanding of what i means to be a follower of Jesus...i just feel like the VAST majority of us are doing more harm than good...demonstrating more hate than love...judging more than caring...helping ourself way more than helping others... it seems that if Jesus were to give up his heavenly body again (whatever that means exactly) and come back here, that most of us would run home get our suit and tie on (don't forget the american flag lapel pin), say a quick prayer reminding him that you voted straight republican, turn on fox news and wait for him to be a guest on whoevers show is replacing glen beck........... back in the day the pharisees and sadducees were the super religious dudes that Jesus was always butting heads with...partly because they were super into keeping rules, telling others to keep the rules and just being super legalistic over all...i think Jesus was trying to show them that thier heart wasn't in it, they were just checking off a list to show how "good" they were...but they weren't actually acting out of devotion to God or thier fellow man...Jesus pointed that out, they got pissed and killed him...my point is, i feel like we behave more like pharisees and sadducees (judging people based on church attendance, how much cash they give back to God, who they kiss...yada yada......... anyhow, there is this idea in christianity that we are supposed to be Jesus' body...his hands, feet, etc. going out into the world doing the things that Jesus wants done...well, from my own experiences and yours too, i would imagine, i say we're doing a pisspoor job ( thats why the photoshop picture, Jesus face with an emaciated and decaying body)........... back to my question at the top...what is important to religious people?...based on our actions i'd say most people think its about keeping gay people from marrying, yelling about hell, consistantly going to a church building and giving people who don't the evil eye and on and on.... somewhere in the bible Jesus says something like "true religion is looking after orphans and widows" and "they will know you are my disciples if you love one another"...when is the last time you felt that in the prescence of a christian?...i hope its at least the next time i see you...if not, tell me to shape up

hey its a new post...

....and its just me asking for a hand out...surprise

east coast friends, you know i've had a "bike" for 3 years and been able to ride it for only like 10 hours...lame...help a cry baby out, buy this bike in north carolina for $2000 then have bhall or my dad drive it out here to me, see how thoughtfull i am, i've already figured out how to save you the shipping :)...anyways, i'd have a running bike, i'd quit complaining (well at least not as much) and i'd be free to spend my money on less important things like bills, therapy for noah, getting cars fixed, etc... anyways heres the link http://www.deathscience.com/2011/04/yard-sale.html

My son in the paper

no, my son is not wolf boy in the globe paper, i'm talking about the salt lake tribune.

my buddy chad wrote this up and submitted it, the tribune put it up on thier site here

this is how my house works

take something perfectly manly...like my little boys toys saw and...

put a dress one it!
my little girl had a friend over to play the other day, and i walked into the toy room and this saw with a toy saw in magnetic paper doll clothes...so i took a picture of this little guy in the nude so that you can see the before and after of the feminie touch at our house...

Noah Now I Can Day 1.wmv

having a kid with special needs has to be one of the hardest things in life...this is noahs first day at "no i can" therapy...its 4 hours a day, 5 days a week for 3 weeks...they feel like one day he will be able to walk without any assistance...which we had never even dreamed of before these folks...its obviously really tough on him and its killing my wife and i...lets hope it pays off